On our way to Perris I received a phone call from Dr. Lee, they got the authorization for the Breast MRI, I will have that done tomorrow. She told me, due to the contrast used for the exams that the Breast MRI and PET/CT could not be done on the same day. Asked if I would extend my stay allowing for that exam to be done on Monday pending authorization.
Driving to the city of Perris where my mother and family lives was nauseating. I was by mere coincidence that my eldest brother had flown in on this day to visit our sister. My other sister lives behind my mother, my brother Oscar waiting in her patio, I believe he thought our mom was napping. He knew of my positive results…..we hugged.
While all of this was going on with me, my sister had made the decision not to have treatment. Again, I had not been involved as I was dealing with my own issues.
I believe my mother was wondering why we were all there. To this day my mom did not know that I was in California. She was shocked to see us all walk in, my mother and sister were sitting at the table. I did not waste time, my mom was a little upset that I had been in Cali, and that I have not been calling her on a regularly. I explained why I came to Cali, I told them I had been diagnosed with Stage III Breast Cancer. My sister with Stage IV, cried…….I did not cry. I asked my sister to fight this with me, I brought her one of the brochures that was given to me……she said no.
My kids came prepared with food to BBQ. My other sister came home from work, before I know it other nieces and nephews are showing up. I was an unplanned little family gathering.
My sister who also has BRCA has had chronic pain all her life, she is tired of living in pain. She told me that she just wants to fall asleep and not wake up. I have to respect her wishes but deep down I wish she would fight this with me!
I am choosing to fight this full force! Cancer messed with the wrong person!!!!
My Breast Cancer Journey 